Thursday June 27th 2006
Talk about coming from a broken family, sighz... I've accepted it but why why why???!!! He's becoming grumpy as days passes by, sitting by the TV like a couch potato, complaining that he having diabetes is like end of the world.
When you lack the EQ & offened many many many of your friends and collegues and lecturers when you were young just because you're a LEO & Rabbit... it does mean your nice Virgo-Pig daughter will suffer the same fate as you!
It's Karma dear daddy, you've done many many many bad things in the past that had got you to the stage of how you're living your life now... Look at grandma, she's 80 yet strong and healthy! It doesn't mean if Fabs is not around in the house, you can just walk around in your briefs and use the toilet without closing the doors, Hello?! I'm a girl for heaven's sake!
And if you hate sharing the common area with me, you should have just taken the master bedroom and have the stupid toilet all to yourself. What's the fucking big problem with toilets? You have something stupid and idiotic going on in your mind which you're beating around the bushes and hoping someone will guess it and rectify it. I'm not going to read your mind, neither is brother...
Only you can change the stupid behaviour of yourself. It's ok that you're taking advantage of your own daughter's kindness and sensitivity to others but please STOP talking about fucking reciprocating love since you have not been providing me with any since mum died when I was 5-1/2!!!!!
Two bloody super logical men in the house is driving me nuts. Which part of your eyes witness that I treated my friends better and not to you? Which which which? I shall dig it out... I'm utterly pissed by your nonsensical reasonings or excuses.
Friends were there right for me when I suffered from depression... they were there for me when I needed help and console. Not some stupid " I told you so before", "It's ok, take it as a lesson", "See! you should have listen to me" phrases. I don't need those salt over my wounds. I needed LOVE, CONCERN and COMPANY! which you fucking didn't and wasn't even there for me... I'm so envious of Meow, she's got her own flat! Maybe I should just move out. Do not make me mad, I'm harmless usually, but the feline's got her own temper.
Stop your nonsense of never to trust friends only your family just because your friends betrayed you for their self interests. And just because no one wants to hear you bellow like a lion, the family doesn't like to interact with you either. Complains come into my ears, not yours. You're always saying "Respect others views and opinions and the way they choose to live their life" etc etc. all the bullshit you have been preaching have not been walked!
Hope something huge befalls upon you till you bloody hell WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! stop all your contradicting "advices" and "life anthropologies" for I live the way I want to live and be the person I want to be.
I love my friends, they may not love me. I treat them nice, they may not treat me nice. So what? That's the way they are and I accept the way they are. The most I'll make new friends and cast them out. Do you have to bear like 20 over years of grudge and keep repeating them to me and brother?
I'm depressed and unhappy because of you! ahh, don't let me fall into the HATE you relationship.
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