Thursday, November 30, 2006
It has been 5 days since 24th. There's a nostalgic feeling towards this end of year.
If I never remember wrongly, if, i broke off with my ex last year on 24th nov and now a year has since past. It reminded me of meow breaking off with the terrible husky boy and got together with Mr. guy knight and they celebrated their 1st year just last month.
It touches me a lot having meow accompanying me for tea and lunch just to get over the sadness. I had fun the whole december with Mei & Mao, Joey & the gang going crazy with KTV sessions and clubbing at Momo. Hey guys, I miss those KTV sessions with all of you! I miss Joey's laughters, Mei's every second on camera shooting, Mao's singing. And I like to thank all of you for being a good friend. =) *muackz*
It's gonna be 8 months for me n the bean plant. Sometimes when things doesn't go smooth between us, I guess he's always the more patient one who strives to understand and keep us going. Unlike me, I'm just... ME... I try and work it out too just that I guess he tries much harder. Sometimes it ain't easy for both to work it out after having bad relationship experiences. We tend to assume and can each other up. It's upsetting that after a long day of school, the only pleasure and relaxation I have is to see him, be it for dinner or a short meet up. It is important to me. However, he seems to choose to stress over work occasionally and "neglect" me. Well, I'll just understand and bear with it. He'll read this anyway.
Was reading this article on women's weekly about thie 19 yr old Malay getting pregnant and the thought of abortion crossed her mind. Her boyfriend was in NS and was excited about the baby but both their families were strongly against them, citing practicality about money, food etc the daily necessities n stuff. But she soon stayed in a church or some kind of it that offers help to distress mothers and eventually she decided to give birth and keep the baby.
It's amazing how these people are so positive and have the courage to brace through and yet live happily. Maybe I'm borne a pessimist or my dad tamed me to become one. I have yet gain wisdom on the chinese saying " Zhi Zu Chang Le", that is to be contented with what you have and you'll be happy.
I'm happy in certain ways, not totally unhappy. But reality and being practical is so right in front of me that sometimes I think I killed my own creativity of script writing, drawing and designing. Even in my compositions.
I wondered how those people get by with the minimal amount of money, yet get by and still be happy. All I know is without money, I can't pursue my interests and love in the arts.
Lesson with Belinda was definitely good. The application of arranging, theory is all incorporated in her teaching and this knowledge is not what every teacher can teach.
The bean plant got a nice digital keyboard at a good price to place in his place so I can play and practice with him whenever I'm at his place. Sweetie, I really appreciate your act and sincerely I thank you from my heart. I'm and I'll be a good girl always. =)
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