Monday, April 28, 2008
Well, so far so good till yesterday, Mr Fabian Lee upsetted me the most and now, what comes in future, I'll just leave it to fate.
It is mine, it will be, It is not mine, let it be.
There's no house no nothing, I will never get married. The only reason I will want to get married is I want to have kids. If not, I rather have my options open, for there're many other things I want to do yet couldn't at this point of my life. A Marriage will only restrain these dreams further beyond reach.
A virgo is a hermit. She enjoys living life by herself. Same do I.
I do not go please people for the sake of it or just because they want things to be done a certain way, THEIR way. Forget it, out of the question. I have high level of tolerance but that doesn't mean compromising my own happiness so that you can be happy.
Fabs mum said "Catholics cannot go to Christian churches"
Well, and Fabs happily replied that "Yes we'll get married in a church"
So we're done in a certain way. You played along, went along and yet disregard my feelings and never even consult me and you make decisions? Who are you to decide where to get married? All my life I'm educated to think for myself, fend for myself, live for myself and face any bloody consequences for each and every decision you make and what you speak.
If you want a church, then sorry, I don't want a CATHOLIC one. Why? Cause I'm a Christian and I'm not suppose to attend a Catholic church. Sorry god I've sinned for I stepped into a catholic church when I'm a christian and we ultimately actually believe in you. STUPID RIGHT? Fuck all the reasons you have of knowing the people, you can do this and that easily. It's pure crap. Then my side of reasoning is that my indian friends, my muslim friends, my taoist friends and my buddhism friends cannot go to church cause their religion forbades them to. Sorry, no church lo.
What do I get from saying this?
Fabian: You're full of shit!
LeRain: Ya I'm full of shit, Happy?
For you final information one last time and get this sunken into your thick numb skull...
1) I FUCK CARE OF A RECEPTION OR CEREMONY. WANT CHEAP JUST HAVE IT AT THE ROM. QUEUE UP GET TWO WITNESS SIGN AND THAT'S IT. FORGET BOUT A CHURCH OR WHATSOEVER. I'VE SURPASSED THE SUPERFICIAL STAGE.
2) I DO NOT WANT A WEDDING DINNER
3) IF THERE'S ANYONE WHO'S SUPPOSE TO BE HAPPY DURING A WEDDING, THE MOST HAPPY PERSON WILL, SHALL AND HAS TO BE ME! I DON'T CARE ANYONE OF YOUR FAMILY OR MY FAMILY COMES WITH A BLACK FACE OR DON'T COME BETTER. CAUSE IT'S MY BIG DAY, MY HAPPY DAY AND I WILL NOT GIVE IN TO ANY WHO TRYS TO MAKE MY DAY THEIRS!
4) WHEN WE HAVE CHILDREN, OR IF WE DO STAY TOGETHER AND HAVE THEM, THEIR RELIGION WILL BE LEFT EMPTY. THEY WILL DECIDE FOR THEMSELVES IN TIMES TO COME.
Despite Elmi and Huiying advising that marriage is not about both of us, it's about two families, then I think it's time to break such traditional thinking. Blessings from the families are good however, w/o them, life still goes on, it doesn't and shouldn't deter our relationship as a marriage is about two of us, not about anyone else.
You fucking upsetted me cause you didn't bother to consult me. Who are you that I am suppose to listen to? It's not ancient china or india or muslim countries that a woman is subservant to the man and must listen and abide to his callings.
I'm not a feminist, I'm a woman with identity and opinionated. You like a church wedding, moreover a catholic girl, as I have already said, keep our options open and you can find a catholic girl to marry in a catholic church.
A church is nothing but a building. Fucking catholic or chrisitan with denomination or not, at the end of the day, the belief is that there is god. So don't give stupid absurd statements that let my friends burst out in laughter that "a catholic cannot step into a christian church"
This only reflects how selfish, shallow and though of supremercy of the religion cause all the other religions I know and understand of, RESPECT the other religions and never ever stated such a statement in their forms of "bible" respectively.
I'm done with this religion thingy. The person I should be marrying is you, not the family. And of course not of the family's religion. You step on my tail again, I'll convert to muslim, and you shall forcefully be converted to a muslim and have yourself circumcised and you can then understand the feeling of so call being "FORCED" to go against your ways just to marry another.
So, unless there's a house. I don't see any point to get married anyway at the end of the day when you throw your temper, you'll just chase me out of the house, ask me, I don't even know why you come back for and end up in divorce.
For your information, this is the umpteen time you have chased me out of your house or in translation: I want to break up with you.
This is the last time I'm enduring and the next time, no more chances. I forgive easily, but I don't forget.
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